What memorable books have you read lately?
I have been reading Damaged by Cathy Glass, an author from the UK. Even when I lay myself down to sleep I cannot, for the life of me, stop thinking about it.
Have you ever had a book affect your thoughts so deeply that you found it hard to concentrate on anything else and get to sleep? Or, have you ever had your dreams and your books intertwine?
It’s like my mind won’t shut off.
A couple weeks ago I was reading Walking on Eggshells by Lyssa Chapman. The review will not be released until closer to the April 2013 release but like Damaged by Cathy Glass, Walking on Eggshells affected my thoughts AND my sleep.
In my dreams about Lyssa, we were sisters. At one point we were running away together, away from a house that was about to destruct. When it did, we were thrown to the ground, together, the heat traveling up our legs from the fire. Then, her father (who you all know as Dog the Bounty Hunter) came to our rescue. For some reason, I felt an intense bond to Lyssa — like we had escaped this disaster together.
As such, her book really made me feel a connection to her, as only one can obtain from an author who chances to be completely honest and vulnerable to her readers .
Now, I find myself pulled into Damaged by Cathy Glass and it’s affecting me deeply. I keep thinking about this little girl, “Jodie” (The UK has pretty steep laws about protecting the identity of minors) and my own experience with a troubled 5 year old from my own class (a few years ago).
There was this child that I had in my class, you couldn’t help but look into those (adorable) blank eyes of his and feel that there was nobody in there. He was so far removed from society that to this day I still think about how he is doing and how his life will be in the future. At the time that I taught him, even for just that short while, I saw nothing in the future for him but prison and I was convinced that unless he sought deep therapy and a stable environment then he will turn into a destructive and dangerous man. At the early age of 5 he was already a destructive and dangerous little boy.
I wish he had someone like Cathy Glass.
The last I heard of him, he was being sent to a school for troubled youth with emotional disorders. I don’t know what that means, exactly, but I hope we haven’t failed him as we have failed so many children. Even though he had complete disrespect for women in his life (including teachers), I know he was reachable as we would sit and have discussions and he would actually smile; a very cute and charming little smile. Even though his eyes appeared to be soulless I know there was a frightened little boy in there somewhere, escaping the reality of his situation.
It still makes me sad that I didn’t have the power to help him, more.
But, anyway — what books have you read (either recently or in your lifetime) have you found to be difficult to get out of your head?