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Wait.. Did I just make this word up?

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Do you ever begin to write something (anything) and then a new word pops into your head and somehow you work it into your sentence, only to wonder later, “Wait — did I just make this word up or is it a real word?” You look down at this alien word before you and you genuinely believe in your entire being that the word works. Do you pass it off like you know what you’re talking about and risk the possible embarrassment of someone calling you out on your faux pas of it being a phony word? Or — do you erase it and find a word that you know exists in the human language? Or none of the above?

Earlier this evening I was posting on a message board when I used the word, “guise”. In my head, for some reason, the word suddenly became foreign to me. I began to question everything about it. I wanted to say that I used it correctly because it sounded right but what if I was wrong? So instead of just accepting my choice of words, clicking submit, and being done with the particular thread I was reading, I had to stop and look up the word. I had to verify its very existence.

It exists and I used it right. Whew. Seriously, though — close call. My next attempt to inject  new vocabulary into my words (written or otherwise) may not turn out the way I had hoped. (Wait — why is inject suddenly sounding off to me?)

I wonder why it is that words we know exist or use often suddenly get switched up in our brain and we begin to question them as being real or question its usage. (Or does that sound completely nutty?) Maybe it’s my brains way of saying, “Feed me more vocabulary.. Nom Nom.” (Or maybe it’s my brain’s way of saying LET ME SLEEP! As I haven’t had a full nights rest in 10.5 months.)

I am not completely alone here, am I? You’ve either made up words or thought you MAY have made up words, right?

Right?

Okay, good.

Dealing with #NaNoWriMo Disappointment

I knew #NaNoWriMo (http://www.nanowrimo.org) would be challenging, but wasn’t quite prepared for HOW challenging it would be. For one, how to get events in my life to line up just perfectly so they do not interrupt the flow of writing. Knowing you have to write a certain amount of words per day, and getting the time to do it is completely different.

My Grandmother came in to town on Wednesday, and this was a big deal because (I love my Grandmother) this was the first time she got to meet her great-granddaughter, Carli. I went with my mother to pick her up at the airport. Then I just sort of tagged along all day, glad to be spending time with someone I hardly get to see – and I loved showing off my little spawn. Was also blessed with a sinus headache so truth be told, I loved the help with Carli. By the time I came home that evening, I was much too exhausted to write. Plus, Forrest wanted to watch a movie and so that, we did. He always puts up with my shenanigans so I couldn’t deny him personal time.

Yesterday, Carli and I went to the book store so I could pick up my Grandmother a copy of Outlander by Diana Gabaldon, since we got into discussing books and I thought she would really love it. (Who doesn’t? Am I right?) The only copy I had was on loan (as well as falling apart) so I went and purchased her a nicer, newer one. It was one of the larger versions; the size of a hard back (but yet paperback). I also ended up purchasing a few books for myself (of course) including Shiver, Lady Shakespeare, Kristy’s Big Idea (Graphic Novel), and Mr. Darcy Vampyre. I think it’s rather tacky the author spells it “Vampyre” but ah well. The whole concept of explaining Mr. Darcy’s moody behaviors of being due to vampirism is rather intriguing although the whole vampire phenomenon is over saturating the book market.

I came home and my brain was wired and foggy. I had coffee. I had coffee AND a full stomach. Even so, I couldn’t concentrate on anything for the LIFE of me. I sat down in the late afternoon to crack out a review on Occult America, and wanted to quickly surrender to calling it a night. The distractions were overwhelming. Forrest was playing some racing game on his XBOX on volume 50-something or other. No matter how many times I nagged (like the wonderful wife that I am) for him to turn it down, I was never satisfied. This, of course, was not his fault as he always obliged. The dog was barking, the cat was meowing for food and attention, the kid was shreaking. So much for peace and quiet so that I could write. I couldn’t even focus! It was one of those moments where I sort of wanted to scream a little because there was just too much going on. Forrest claims I yelled at him, but I really didn’t. (Really!)

Carli finally went to bed at 8, which was probably too early since she woke up at 4:30 this morning) – so I finally got to working on Azraelle (my #NaNoWriMo Work-in-Progress). I didn’t get much done, but still more than the day before (a whopping zero words). It only felt that I was able to relax and stay focused when it came to the evening. Of course around 8 or so, Forrest wanted to go relax and watch TV in bed. (Sigh). I am having issues getting the time to sit down and write!

I already felt like a failure on day 5. I was very lucky to receive a lot of support with feeling like a #NaNoWriMo loser yesteraday. Hopefully I can make it past the 4k mark today. Heck, if I make it to 10k by the end of this thing, I think I’ll be pretty happy. Is anyone else having difficulty pulling things together to make time for #NaNoWriMo?

After years of hesitation, I am doing it. #NaNoWriMo

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I must be absolutely, undeniably crazy. Will #NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) help me escape this plaguing writer’s block that has remain stagnant in my mind for the past.. I don’t know – 4 or 5 years? Words used to come easily to me and now, I second guess every word I put down on paper (with the intention of publication). I want to change the world. I want a best-seller. I want Oprah to say, “This is the best book I’ve read in a long time.”

The Secret says I should keep saying those things, putting them out in the universe bound to listen. However, for any writer – the pressure is just too much and writer’s block is the end result. Because I truly want to move beyond this (I have so much to get out onto paper – so many ideas racked up in this brain of mine) I have decided – I am just going to do it. I will join #NaNoWriMo and will finish my novel (at least the first draft)

In preparation for the big event that starts on November 1st, I have been doing my research on how to overcome writer’s block. Here are some good tips I have found and hopefully they will help you too (if you are anything like me!)

  1. Just write – Don’t focus too much on what you’re writing. Just write to get your thoughts out onto paper. It doesn’t have to be perfect.
  2. Don’t edit as you go – Sentence Structure? Spelling? Past and present text mix up? Don’t worry about it. First drafts are meant to be choppy. If you edit as you go, then you’ll always second guess how something appears and never move beyond the first chapter.
  3. Have No Fear – Don’t be worried about what the critics may say about what you’re writing. Fear only births hesitation – and there is no room for fear here.
  4. Write about what you know – Write about the people you know, or the situations you or they have experienced. Do your research. Knowing creates confidence and confidence demolishes fear.
  5. Take a break – After you have followed the “just write” and “no edit” rule and have finished your future masterpiece.. take a break from it. (Give it a week, or two!) This allows you to clear all initial judgments or insecurities you may have about your piece, allowing you to go back and begin cleaning it up with a clear mind.

I hope the above helps anyone participating in #NaNoWriMo this upcoming month of November! It starts on the 1st and ends on November 30th. Good luck and happy writing to everyone who is participating in it this year! If you feel like befriending someone else on #NaNoWriMo, do a search for username: ALifeUnpublished and that’ll be me. I’ll add you back. :)